Update


Hello my blogger fans/friends and family. I am sorry I kinda fell off the map for a minute. I guess I owe you all an update.
Well, Life has changed for me. I have changed! Thank you Jesus for the BETTER! I grew tired of going through the motions and kinda going on auto pilot through my life.
Going through life just existing without LIVING. Not knowing the meaning of why I am here or what I was suppose to do with the cards of life I had been dealt. Situation's  dealing with and handling several family members with strong and horrible addictions  were consuming everything about who I was. I was filled with bitterness and hate and more than anything full of hurt and confusion. Mainly because I couldn't fix it. I ran myself in circles to everyone's rescue when in fact I was the biggest enabler.Then faced with that..... I felt guilty and responsible. So I was still left trying to mend things.. only to be left disappointed not only in the situation but in myself for not being strong enough to keep trudging through it. I was quite literally on a huge hamster wheel. I was trying to manage a life that wasn't mine. I have an awesome most loving husband that God has blessed me with. He truly is my best-est-est-est-est friend. Truly a match made in Heaven. Put together by GOD! And we were blessed beyond anything we could ever deserve with Nicholas. And yet I found myself sometimes neglecting them running to the aid of someone I thought I could save. 3 am I would leave my husband and son in bed to go 80 miles to beg... i mean BEG someone to please get in the car with me. Why I was begging him to come with me.. when he was the one who called me I have no idea. But I tried to remember that he wasn't in his right state.But,that was the night I gave up. Not on him. But in thinking I could do this. I am STRONG...but I am not unbreakable. I cant LOVE him enough to change him. I cant want it for him. I cant beg God to hear me when I wasn't sure what I was asking for.On the side of the interstate begging someone I love soooooo much to please let me get them off the side of the road and take them home. While he cussed me.. told me mean and hurtful things and I sobbed and sobbed and quite literally hit my knees that night on the side of I-65 and very desperately asked for help. that night I gave him to God. While I will always love and always be there for my family. But their addictions can no longer consume me. I guess I really did have to hit that low place to fully give him to God. I no longer run after him. I no longer go looking for him in bad places when I haven't talked to him in a day. Not that I don't worry , or love him. But because God has truly given me peace and I can rest in knowing that its bigger than me. I had to get out of GODs way.I still help, but in a different way now. I offer hot meals. Warm showers and rides to Dr or grocery stores..keep kids when times aren't so good...etc etc. It took me MONTHS to get to this place.It hasn't been easy I must admit. God gave me strength for sure! But there were areas that I had to stand up for myself and declare a few things for myself through Him. Things not so accepted by my peers. But they eventually started talking to me again and understand and respect my choices. I no longer get the calls in the middle of the night. I no longer see the drug use in front of me. I no longer over hear the conversations/deals and I no longer wonder about any of it either. I still had feelings of guilt and feeling like I was abandoning them.  And that is just HALF of what was going on in my life at that time. On the other half was this MASSIVE WARRRR with my father in law. Years of being burned and all the deceit and evil plotting against me and my family. Fighting him for a relationship with my very own mother. Talk about exhausting. Constant terrorizing!
The HATE I had for THAT man. WOOOOOO its enough to scare even a Holy man I'm sure! My life was like a deadly cancer. There was NO LIFE in it. Looking back , I'm not surprised I felt like giving up and crawling into a dark hole all the time. Not feeling sorry for myself at all!!! Quite the opposite actually. Im overwhelmed with honor and humbled with Gods love for me to take alllllll that junk from me.Right in the middle of this life...he through me a life line. One that I FINALLY grabbed!!And after months of grabbing hold of it.Feeding on it. I am a new person. Halleluiah!
Thank you Jesus!
There is no way to fully describe whats happened to me in the past 6 months. Those of you that know me and how my life was and how consumed and unhappy i was with life.
 I cant begin to tell you how happy and full of life I am today! And its by no works of mine. All I had to do was open my heart to Jesus. To accept and know that he DOES love me!
The things of my old life are still present BUT my perspective is clear and all the fog is gone. I am thrilled to say that TODAY my step father and I are in a great place.
WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THIS WOULD HAPPEN!!
 I had this enormous need to make things right with James. To give him a heart felt apology for my part in this horrible on going battle between the two of us and i wanted to give him my forgiveness for all he had done as well.
NOT because I wanted to prove something to God or to anyone else. NO one even knew I was going over there. I just had this overwhelming need to LOVE him! Wow right! At first I fought the feeling and thought I was getting to deep and moving to fast in this God thing!! I was scared to open doors that I shut-Locked-Bolted-bricked SHUT!!! I didn't want to feel the pain all over again.
The man I would dream about at night disappearing never to be found. I was now wanting to embrace and love on. I felt compassion for him. Where was this coming from.
God removed the hurt...he stripped the anger... he BURIED all that.. the spirit of the Holy Ghost... that LIVES in me was awakened like nothing I have ever experienced in my LIFE!
Things are not perfect! And they will never be perfect! I'm constantly changing. He is constantly moving me from Glory to Glory!
Now when I go to my moms the first thing I do like always is hug her and tell her i Love her. And now I make a 'B' line directly to James. Our hugs are getting longer and longer and a time or two we just kinda stood there holding one another hugging and when we finally broke away we were BOTH crying!Never exchanging a single word. I honestly feel like God is over flowing. He has opened his heart and MINE and God is doing amazing things . I'm telling you!!! Its WONDERFUL to be a part of and watch! Im excited to move forward! God has massive plans and he is truly working over here!!! FOR SURE!!!

God is so wonderful so loving and so forgiving. We are HIS! He created EACH of us and wants us ALL to prosper and live Heaven on Earth!
I am as broke now.... as I have ever been in my LIFE! But feel so RICH its like I should be wearing a crown. Oh wait I AM!! Thank you JESUS!
I feel so blessed beyond any measure. I have so much to be so thankful for and so much to cherish. All the gifts God has given to me.
I see things so clearly now that I never in my wildest dreams ever thought possible. I SEE THEM HAPPENING! And im NOT just talking material or monetary here.. I'm talking EVERYTHING. Restoring relationships-breaking chains-setting folks free-stripping stuffffffffff away!! WHOOOAAAAAA!!!

I have finally after 30 years of wanting I now have a Church family! That shelters and accepts and loves you unconditionally!
I don't feel like when I walk in there is a red flashing arrow hovering over my head exposing all my "junk". I feel accepted and loved and a place where I belong.

God does hear your cries. He does answer prayers. I'm walking in mine. Thank you God.
I may not look like it... But I feel like a shining star glowing so bright! I feel Jesus all over me!

So there is my update. That's what I been up to and why I haven't been around much. I've been busy falling in love. <3
Thank you for being patient with me and hanging in here. I see the tracker where you guys have continuously stopped by and Ive gotten the comments. Thank you all so much for not giving up on me. I plan on jumping back in with the
Templates and blings and tuts etc etc.
And I think my blog may double as a journal from time to time.
Sorry for the rambling. But you know me. I ramble......

Honey Bee Tut

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By:http://gwenscreations.blogspot.com/
For this tutorial, you'll need a working knowledge of PSE.
I'm using  8 but any version should work.
This tutorial is my own and any resemblance to any other is purely coincidental.
Supplies needed for this tutorial are:

The Kit I am using is
by Lorie Davison "BaBee Nursery Garden
You can grab this kit at Scrapbookgraphics.com
Tube I am using the amazing work of 
www.JenniferLNilsson.com/
which can be purchased at
www.mytagart.com

Using Garden Fence 3 place centered on your canvas.
Add drop shadow
Place your tube in front of the gate of fence.
Add drop shadow
next element is named fuzzy soft thing to sit on we will be using this are our grass area.
place as back layer and duplicate 2x  totaling 3 elements
place along the fence line.
Using element large grass clump 3 place on canvas and position along side the front of the fence on both sides.
You will duplicate this element several times.
Position to taste.
Using large clump grass 1 element do not resize and place as bottom layer behind fence. Duplicate and position all along the back of the canvas.
This will give the feeling of being deep within the stalks of grass.
I used a total of 3 of these.
Now using element hive flower cubby place within the stalks of grass we just placed behind the fence. We will create a village feel to the tag with the lil houses.
Now using element hive flower with no windows
place within the stalks as well.
Position to taste.
Using Hive flower with windows 3 place within the stalks as well.
Position to taste.
Using hive flower without windows 1
place within the stalks as well.
Position to taste.
Using flower garden foreground element place along the "grass" areas as top layer
Using big flower clump I place behind fence randomly to suit taste.
Using purple daisy 1 place in the stalks of grass at random.
To suit to taste.
Again this is to give the feeling that this is a little village deep in the grasses.
A little make believe fantasy land.
Using big flower clump 2 place behind fence randomly to suit taste.
I used only one of these.
Using element honey jar 3 place as top layer and coordinate with honey puddle 1. Position to taste.
Crop as close as you can to your tag-resize to your liking
Add Name and any other text you choose and your
copyright © information
 and save.

Cluster Frame

The AMAZING kit I used to create this
cluster frame can be found HERE
Absolutely beautiful kit.
Thank you so much Kesha for sharing your creative
talent with the world!
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DOWNLOAD  FRAME HERE

Blog Award :-)

I have received an award from my good friends
SARAH @
Sarahs Tags N Things
I Love ya girlie!! Thanks so much for thinking about me!!!

The aim of the award is to bring recognition to blogs with minimal followers. Since I have accepted the award I must pass it on to at least 3 other blogs (but not more than 5), that have inspired me and I feel deserve a bit more attention. The rules are to say thank you on our blog to the one who passed it on to us (THANK YOU SARAH!!) and link to their blog (Sarahs Tags N Things). Pick the blogs to pass the award on to, leave a note on their blog and then list them with links to their blogs...
So here are the blogs I have chose:
2.SueEllen @ WickedCreations
Thanks again Sarah Darlin'!!
You are AWESOME doll.
Check out Sarah's Blog and leave some love!

PTU-Easter Violets

This AMAZING kit can be found HERE
Absolutely beautiful kit.
Thank you so much Kesha for sharing your creative
talent with the world!
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A Lazy Spring Afternoon-PTU

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A Lazy Spring Afternoon
By:http://gwenscreations.blogspot.com/
For this tutorial, you'll need a working knowledge of PSE.
I'm using  8 but any version should work.
This tutorial is my own and any resemblance to any other is purely coincidental.
Supplies needed for this tutorial are:
Scrap Kit Of choice
I am using a wonderful kit called My Magic Paradise and can be purchased HERETube of Choice I am using the wonderful artwork of Candice Dillhoff visit her site HERE
purchase her tubes at My Tag Art by clicking HERE

Font(s) of choice: I am using
Legendaria

Off we go.
First open blank canvas of 700x700 this will be our work space.
We will crop and re-size later. I like to have plenty of work space.

Note-You may need to refer back to the completed tag for quick element placement.

Starting with element 18 resize to 600 &  place in center of your work space.

Now taking my tube I will resize to 250 and place her to the left side of my work space.
Add drop shadow with the following setting
5-5-96

Using element 103 resize to 400 and place as back layer and place to the left of your design and duplicate moving to the left to make the fence continue on.
Add drop shadow using these settings
5-5-75

Using element 119 resize re-size to 200 and move to BACK layer
move to the left

Using element 119 again....resize to 50 and place as top layer to the left in front
of the stalks of grass.

Using element 116 resize to 400 place as left back layer.
Add drop shadow using the following setting
5-5-75
With your eraser erase the trunk of the tree we are only using the top.
Like our new bush?

 Duplicate and move to right.
Using element 87 re-size to 200
place in front of element 119 behind the tube.
This is just to add a little depth to the tag. The mushrooms looked a little flat to me.

Using element 72 resize to 200 placing behind your tube on the left side.

Using element 81 resize to 50 place behind tube & beside element 72

Using paper 11 with your cookie cutter tool using the oval shape and your feather set to 40
cut large oval of the paper to use as your background.

 Using element 97 resize to 100 and place as top layer center of design
Duplicate and place to the left of design

Using element 77 resize to 100 and place in front of element 119 to the left.

Using element 82 resize to 100 and place as top layer in front of tube at the bottom.
Crop excess white around your work.
Resize
Add text and all copyright info.
Add any animation you choose.
I used the plug in Alien Skin Xenofex 2-Constellation effect on the water part of element 18
Save.
Enjoy.

Remembering the babies

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By:http://gwenscreations.blogspot.com/
For this tutorial, you'll need a working knowledge of PSE.
I'm using  8 but any version should work.
This tutorial is my own and any resemblance to any other is purely coincidental.
Supplies needed for this tutorial are:
Scrap Kit Of choice
I am using a wonderful kit called Riley Renee and can be found here
Thank you so much Kelly for sharing your amazing work.
Tube of Choice I am using the wonderful artwork of Zindy Nielsen
which can be purchased  HERE
Font(s) of choice: I am using
Courier New
Elegant
Off we go.
First open blank canvas of 700x700 this will be our work space.
We will crop and re-size later. I like to have plenty of work space.
Add AD frame 1 to your work space. Add drop shadow with the following settings
Size-5 Distance-5 Opacity 38
Add your tube
I am adding her ON TOP of the frame and then duplicating her and putting the duplicate  BEHIND the frame and taking the eraser on the TOP tube erasing the bottom part of her body that is outside of the frame.We do this so that it appears she is in the frame yet the top half of her is projecting from the frame.
Add drop shadow to the top tube with the following settings
Size 10 - Distance 9 - Opacity 47
Add the AD Label element to your work area placing it to the RIGHT of your tube on the frame.
Using paper 3 with your cookie cutter tool using the oval shape and your feather set to 40
cut large oval of the paper to use as your background.
Place it behind all your layers and position to taste.
Using element branch 2 place on work space and place to the LEFT BEHIND your tube but in FRONT of frame. Duplicate and rotate to slightly to the left as well.
Using element flower with bow. Resize to 275 Place as top layer.
On top of your element branch 2's
add drop shadow with the following settings
Size 5-Distance 5- Opacity 75
With element rattle place as top layer to the left of your tube on top of the flower with the box.
Add drop shadow with the following settings
Size 5- Distance 5- Opacity 75
Using element string with bows resize to 200
place on top of your rattle.
Crop excess white around your work.
Resize add text and all copyright info.
Save.

Kelly here is you an animated one hun!Thanks again for your amazing talent.

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PTU-JoanneSchempp (Snaggable)

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By:http://gwenscreations.blogspot.com/
For this tutorial, you'll need a working knowledge of PSE.
I'm using  8 but any version should work.
This tutorial is my own and any resemblance to any other is purely coincidental.
Supplies needed for this tutorial are:
Scrap Kit Of choice
  the one that's being used in this tut is
"So Eggciting"
From www.nitwitcollections.com
Tube Of choice
I am using the work of http://Schempp.us
Can be found at www.MyTagArt.com
Note: This is a copyrighted tube and you must purchase
 the tubes and licence before using.
Font(s) of choice:
I'm using
0 Whoa DNA & AffaLite
Off We go.
Open blank canvas size 700 x 700
We will crop and resize later.
I am placing my tube in center of my work area.
Using element wordart easter resizing to 150 rotating to the left
placing it along side my tube on the right side.
add drop shadow
Using element egg boarder resize to 400
place as as layer on work area behind wordart easter but on top of your tube.
Using element boarder curly resizing to 450 and rotate flip vertical
we are using this boarder as our grass.
place as top layer in your work area.
duplicate 1x add drop shadow and place to suit at the bottom of your tube to
appear that she is sitting in the grass.
Duplicate  rotate flip vertical place as back layer
this gives the grass a tad more depth to it.
Using element egg 5 resize to 300 and place in work area behind the grass but on top of the tube.
Using element egg 4 resize to 100 and place on top of the egg 5
turn slightly to the right placing it to the left of egg 5
add drop shadow
Get paper 11 resize to 700 x 700
and with your cookie cutter tool using the oval shape and your feather set to 20
Cut a large circle of the paper to use as your background.
Place it behind all your layers and position to taste.
Crop as close as you can to your tag-resize to your liking
Add Name and any other text you choose and your
copyright © information
 (If you choose to add animation now would be the time to do that as well.)
I will be adding the glitter effect to the text by adding NOISE in 3 different amount levels.
10-11-12  saving each as separate JPG images. And then animating in Animation Shop

PTU-Be You

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By:http://gwenscreations.blogspot.com/
For this tutorial, you'll need a working knowledge of PSE.
I'm using  8 but any version should work.
This tutorial is my own and any resemblance to any other is purely coincidental.
Supplies needed for this tutorial are:
Scrap Kit Of choice
  the one that's being used in this tut is
Poprox & Lollipops from www.scraporchard.com
Tube Of choice
I am using the work of Hannag Lynn
www.hannahlynnart.com which can be purchased at
www.mytagart.com
Note: This is a copyrighted tube and you must purchase the tubes\ and licence before using.
Off We go.
Open blank canvas size 700 x 700
We will crop and resize later.
Selecting Frame 8 rotate to the left.Resize to 500.
Place to the left  on your work space canvas.
Selecting element heart border. Resize to 300 place on top of the frame 8 and at the bottom.
Refer to picture if needed.
Using frame 4 resize to 200. place on canvas as top layer and slightly turn to the right.
Using tube resize to 300 and move to canvas behind frame 4 . Position to suit. Erase excess.
Using original tube...move to canvas as BACK layer behind frame 8. Duplicate 2x. So you now have 3 copies of your tube. Position behind frame 8 to suit. I am using the eyes and mouth as my objects to be in frames.
Getting Element Flair Heart resize to 100 rotate to the left. place as TOP layer to the left side of frame 8.Add drop shadow.
Using Element pink glitter resize to 300 add as back layer behind all elements. Duplicate 3x. Position to suit.
Using Element green glitter resize to 300 add as back layer behind all elements. Duplicate 3x. Position to suit.
Using Element black glitter resize to 300 add as back layer behind all elements. Duplicate 3x. Position to suit.
Crop as close as you can to your tag-resize to your liking
Add any  text you choose and your copyright © information and save.

PTU-MyTagArt Tube Ann Howard

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By:http://gwenscreations.blogspot.com/
For this tutorial, you'll need a working knowledge of PSE.
I'm using  8 but any version should work.
This tutorial is my own and any resemblance to any other is purely coincidental.
Supplies needed for this tutorial are:
Scrap Kit Of choice
  the one that's being used in this tut is In My Mystery Land and can be bought HERE
The Tube used in this Tag is the artwork of Ann Howard and can be found
HERE
Ann Howards website can be found HERE

Note: This is a copyrighted tube and you must purchase the tubes\ and licence before using.
Off We go.
NOTE: You may want to see my tag for element arrangements
periodically thru out following the tut.

Open blank canvas size 700 x 700
We will crop and resize later.
You will first get element 43(patch of grass) resize to 500 and place on your canvas and duplicate 3 x so you now have a total of 4 patches of grass. Arrange 2 side by side for top layer and 2 side by side behind your top 2 patches of grass. Adding drop shadows to the all.
Now get element 26 and resize to 400 place on top of your grass patches centered.
Add Drop Shadow.
I am now getting my tube
Ann Howard and can be found
HERE
resizing to 400 and placing as a top layer. Add Drop Shadow.
Getting element 65(tree) and resizing to 300 and placing as the bottom layer behind all other elements. I am placing  it to the left side.But you can move the elements around to suit your personal preferences. Add Drop shadow.
Now going back to element 43(grass) and resize to 300 and add as TOP layer on top of the tube to cover up the cut off parts of her. Duplicate and place to the left side of the tube.
You now have covered up the cut off part and given it the look of dementions and not so flat.
Taking element 27 resizing to 50. place as top layer and  duplicate 5 times and place the stalks of grass all around your tube. To give the effect she is sitting in the grass. Take element 31 resize to 100 and place to the right side of the tube on top of the grass stalks (element 27)
Take element 37  resize to 100 and place on canvas as top layer and place to the left side.
Now getting element 41 resize to 50 and place slightly to the right side of the tree. You will need to take your eraser and erase the stalk of the flower from the bottom.
duplicate element 41 bring this layer to the top and place in front of the tree trunk.
Erasing parts that are to long.(the stalks of this flower is extremely long)
Duplicate and place it to the right side now behind your mushroom.
Now take element 61 resize to 50 duplicate 3x so you have a total of 4 and place 2 on either side of your tag. (refer to my tag for placement)
Take element 18 resize to 200 and place as TOP layer to the left of your tag.Take element 42 resize to 200 add to right side of tag.
Get paper 3 resize to 700 x 700
and with your cookie cutter tool using the oval shape and your feather set to 20
Cut a large oval of the paper to use as your background.
Place it behind all your layers and position to taste.
Crop as close as you can to your tag-resize to your liking
Add Name and any other text you choose and your
copyright © information
 and save.

Tag Show-Off

Made this to use as my Easter signature.
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PTU-Woman In Love Tut

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A Woman In Love Tut
By:http://gwenscreations.blogspot.com/
For this tutorial, you’ll need a working knowledge of PSE.
I’m using  8 but any version should work.
This tutorial is my own and any resemblance to any other is purely coincidental.
Supplies needed for this tutorial are:
Scrap Kit Of choice
  the one that's being used in this tut is A Woman In Love and can be found HERE
The Tube used in this Tag is the artwork of Rachael Tallamy and can be found HERENote: This is a copyrighted tube and you must purchase the tubes and licence before using.
Off We go.
Open blank canvas size 700x700
We will crop later.Give yourself enough room to play.
Resize frame (el75) to 450x420 and center in your workspace. Add slight drop shadow.
I am now adding my tube of choice.
I am adding her ON TOP of the frame and then duplicating her and putting the duplicate  BEHIND the frame and taking the eraser on the TOP tube erasing the bottom right part of her and her dress that's on top the frame.  This effect makes it appear as if she is perhaps sitting on the frame.
Now taking paper 9 resizing  to 500 place behind the frame and erase the excess that is still showing. You can do this by using your eraser tool or your magic wand tool. Which ever works best for you. The effect is the same.
Now opening el113 vine flowers and resizing to 400 and place it behind the tube but in front of the frame. Taking el14 bow resizing to 250 and placing it on TOP of all your layers and I am placing mine to the right side of the frame. Slightly on top of the vine element we just placed. (el113)
Now adding el2 envelope to the left side of the frame behind the tube on top of the frame.
Add drop shadow.
Play with your placement to fit your personal preference.
I then added el73 flower resize to 200x158 and add it on top of the envelopes we just placed. Open Paper 11 and with your cookie cutter tool using the oval shape and your feather set to 20
Cut a large oval of the paper to use as your background.
Place it behind all your layers and position to taste.
Add Name and any other text you choose and your copyright © information
Crop as close as you can to your tag-resize to your liking and save.

PTU-Tag

Made this tag and avatar with a kit called
Wicked In Black
By Kelly aka Angel's Designz

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Lovely Ladybug-PTU


Had an awesome time playing with a new kit called
Lovely Ladybug
Get it HERE
Thanks for another amazing kit Natalie!
Things I made with the Lovely Ladybug Kit!

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You can find this kit HERE

Sweet Love

The tags below were made with a brand new scrap kit called
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2 Free Cluster Frames and a Quick Page
created by me with purchase of kit!
(You will receive these from Natalie.Not me!)
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Thank you Natalie for allowing me to play
with your awesome new kit.
http://candyliciousdesignz.blogspot.com/

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